Break a vase, and the love that reassembles
the fragments is stronger than that love which
took its symmetry for granted
when it was whole.
(Derek Walcott)
I love this!
Recently quite a lot of things broke in my life
Some I chose to smash
Some I did not.
I left a secure well paid job
My children left home
Menopause rocked my foundations
My mother was diagnosed with Dementia
It has been a busy couple of years!

Lots to reassemble

I took my salary for granted
I took my noisy home for granted
I took my body functioning with its monthly cycles for granted
I took my mother always being there to make me laugh and rage for granted

And now?

I work as a life coach and writer
And although I really miss the security of regular money I am doing what I believe in and what fulfils me.
I love the women my girls have become
And I embrace the freedom and space that I have now they have left home.
I have learnt to listen to my body and to respect it
I have learnt self compassion
I experience the sadness that comes with witnessing a loved one’s decline
And I have let go of all the anger I had for my mother for so many years

So things break
But they get put back together again
It’s all very different
But I think I have learnt to value the way the broken pieces of my life have been reassembled.
I think I might just love it more.